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Sunday, April 30, 2017

10 Reasons Why I'm Terrified To Eat!


Why am I terrified to eat?  (See 5 Signs You Need To Go To The ER For An Allergic Reaction)  


It's bad enough having reactions to gluten, nuts, soy, corn and eggs, but now that IT is back, it's a nightmare. (See Why Am I Not Posting Recipes? Because IT Has Started Again!)
  • When IT starts, anything can cause the mystery attack.
  • An attack is horrendous and causes me extreme anxiety.
  • My neck, throat, face, nose and tongue swell.  The swelling hurts.
  • It's difficult to swallow and breathe.
  • It feels like you are being strangled.  
  • I can barely turn my head when this happens.
  • I don't want to wind up in the ER yet again.
  • I can't stand all the poking and prodding in the ER to come out with the very same results, WE DON'T KNOW. 
  • I don't want to ruin celebrations or holidays.
  • I can't stand the feeling from the medications they give me; IV Benadryl, IV Steroids, Epinephrine shot.

Eating is a basic need.  It's instinctive.  A monkey can do it!

Being terrified to eat is simply not normal.  I asked my counselor if she ever heard of anyone who was afraid to eat. She said no.  People do have eating disorders, but they don't present in this manner. (See How to Deal With Life's Bizarre Challenges)


I miss salads the most.  I loved my salads.  I also miss my vegetables.  (See Organic Brussels Sprouts & NYC Restaurant Known For It's Brussels Sprouts!)


I was even scared to start the powdered nutrition the doctor ordered.
  • The counselor had to talk me into it! 
  • It was a whole production the first time.  
  • I did it in my parents' house, with a lot of people around.  
  • I had my EPI pens by my side (sticking up from my pocketbook).  
  • I took only a spoonful at first.  
You would think it was poison the way I was acting!  (See Oh, I Know, You Have Celiac Disease. Umm, No, Not Exactly)


I saw the new Gastroenterologist today.  I told her my long, sordid tale.  (See IT Struck Again Last Night - What Is IT????)


She thinks the Allergist/Immunologist is onto something!  She scheduled an endoscopy/colonoscopy to do a specific biopsy and she's getting medical records from the Allergist. (See My Second Visit With the Extraordinary New Doctor April 21, 2017)  Unfortunately, the appointment isn't until July!  Crazy, I know.


I was able to get in to see the ENT for May 16 rather than June!  And so... the saga continues   (See Me, My Highfalutin Car And The ENT..)

Click Video

So... I continue with my powdered nutrition until further notice!  MMMMMMMMMMM. (See   Congratulations! You Just Gave Birth To....).

Click Video for Gluten free, organic crockpot lasagna

I can't wait to, hopefully, at least get back to the way I was eating when I started this blog!  I'd love to film more gluten-free, organic (allergy-free) recipes!


Of course, I'd love to be able to taste all the foods I used to eat once in a while when I was NORMAL.  After all, New York has amazing cuisine!  (See Foods And Drinks That Originated In Or Are Associated With New York Part 1)

I'm a BIG MYSTERY, per the Gastroenterologist's exclamation today!  Yeah, I know, I know.

Stay tuned....




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Saturday, April 29, 2017

Listen To Erma - She Knows...


You can be sitting at the table after a long, fun-filled weekend with family and friends and... BAM, in an instant, your life changes. (See Welcome - Make Yourself At Home - Some History On Me)


I NEVER ate cookies, I never much cared for sweets.  We were all talking at my sister's house last night and I said I've never tasted a Twinkie, never liked the smell.  I took a tiny bite of a Funnybones and didn't like that either. That was about 40 years ago, never touched anything like that since.


That night eight years ago, I didn't even eat the whole cookie!  I took a taste.  I wound up in the ER. It's been downhill ever since.  In an instant.

Everyone always says... tomorrow, later, sometime.  We aren't guaranteed any of that.  Do it TODAY!

 
Make memories to last a lifetime.  Have FUN.  Spend the money!  You deserve it.  The house will always be there, it's not going anywhere.  Worry about the house tomorrow, later, sometime.


If you die suddenly, the house will go to relatives. You know what they do?  I've seen it OVER AND OVER working for lawyers and in insurance.  They sell it, AS IS and take the money and... GO ON VACATION AND MAKE THOSE MEMORIES AND HAVE FUN!


You work hard.  You deserve to have fun, see the world, get wild, relax, try new cuisine.  Travel and vacations are great for kids.  I've always said, you learn more seeing the world and living than you ever will in any classroom!  Get out there and LIVE.  You only get one chance. (See Time Travel - Is It Possible?)

Click Video - This family decided to go to Hawaii for a month!  They pulled the kids out of school.  People gave them crap.  If you ask me, this is an experience of a lifetime and those kids are learning more than they ever will in any classroom!  

Listen to Erma - She Knows...  As a kid and young adult, I read her column all the time!
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Erma Louise Bombeck (née Fiste; February 21, 1927 – April 22, 1996)

IF I HAD MY LIFE TO LIVE OVER – by Erma Bombeck
(written after she found out she was dying from cancer).
I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren’t there for the day.
I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.
I would have talked less and listened more.
I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.
I would have eaten the popcorn in the ‘good’ living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.
I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.
I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.
I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.
I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.
I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.
I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn’t show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.
Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I’d have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.
When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, ‘Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.’ There would have been more ‘I love you’s’ More ‘I’m sorry’s.’
But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute, look at it and really see it .. live it and never give it back. STOP SWEATING THE SMALL STUFF!!!
Don’t worry about who doesn’t like you, who has more, or who’s doing what Instead, let’s cherish the relationships we have with those who do love us.
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Do as you please.  As long as it's not intentionally hurting anyone or illegal, live for YOU!


One thing I was always taught and I taught my own kids was to never care what others think.  It's how I've lived my whole life!  I live for ME and whoever doesn't like it, well, I guess they have a problem!  

Basically, I've lived life like Erma describes! Too bad she figured it out when it was too late!


NO ONE, EVER, ON THEIR DEATHBED, said, "I wish I had painted the house more, done more laundry, worked longer hours, mowed the lawn more."  You NEVER hear people say, "Remember the time the kitchen floor was spotless."  


People laugh and reminisce about the silly things, the special parties, the fun vacations, the mishaps, the time when they were kids that they made their aunt so crazy, she chased  them a city block with a loaf of bread wielding it like a Samurai sword!


The most fun is when you all disagree about how it happened and have to call an older sibling or relative to get the story straight.  But you will "remember it" your way always and you will laugh and have fun all over again for many years!


One day, I will tell you about ONE of the many camping trips we've taken.  My friend and I refer to as the SAVE THE EELS trip!  


No one can do it all.  I chose to make the memories and have the fun!  I have no regrets!

Listen to Erma - She Knows...  She figured it out a bit late, but, she's right!



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Friday, April 28, 2017

Time Travel - Is It Possible?

Me, watching the kids play on a private Island during a Disney cruise - 1999
I recently watched a documentary online about Time Travel.  So they say, it may one day be possible! Personally, I think they are doing some serious drugs.


If it does become possible, though,sign me up! Yes... I want to go Back To The Future!  I want to be NORMAL again.  I also miss when my kids were little and all the fun we had!
top l -r my kids on vaca circa 1996, me and son in St. Petersburg 1989, my sis, friend and me Great Adventure circa 1984
middle l - r my son at water park on vaca circa 1998, my daughter and I at Niagara Falls circa 2002, group trip to Sesame Place circa 1990
bottom l - r group trip NYC at Christmas circa 2000, Long Island Game farm circa 2002, Niagara Falls circa 2002

top - l - r  pumpkin farm on Long Island unknown year, my daughter and nieces at Lake George, circa 2003, me and my daughter Disney Cruise 1999
middle - l - r Bronx Zoo circa 1997, Disney trip with friends circa 2001, me white water rafting Maine circa 2007
bottom - l - r  me and sis as kids on vaca circa 1969, niece and dad Lake George circa 2003, Cedar Beach, NY unknown year.
top - l - r me and daughter NYC circa 2000, Massachusetts with friends circa 2000, pumpkin farm Long Island unknown year
middle - l - r  my daughter Disney 1999, me and son Sesame Place circa 1990, my daughter Sesame Place circa 1999
bottom - l - r me on a cruise 1985, me and my kids Disney cruise 1999, me and kids Disney cruise 1999
I want to travel like I used to.  (See How to Deal With Life's Bizarre Challenges)

Do it TODAY - before it's too late.  (See Listen To Erma - She Knows...)

I want to do exciting things and be able to breathe, try delicious cuisines and not wind up in an ambulance; you know, like NORMAL people! (See Welcome - Make Yourself At Home - Some History On Me)

Me at a party, 1997, with a cigarette and a screwdriver (I quit smoking in 2001) but at least I was NORMAL back then!
I want to go to parties without a care like I used to.  (See What About Restaurants, Parties, Invites And Public Places?)  I want to eat the delicious food at the party like I used to. (See Incredible, Amazing Party With My Fabulous Fun, Insane Family And Friends!)


I want to go Back To The Future and hopefully PREVENT what is happening now, somehow, some way.  Wishful thinking, I know. It's not preventable, but, if I'm going to time travel, dammit, I'm going to prevent illness too!


If I had a choice of winning 70 million dollars or going back and doing it all again, I'd go back, enjoy it all again, the good and the bad and try to prevent IT from attacking me..(See Why Am I Not Posting Recipes? Because IT Has Started Again!)


I've learned, though, never to complain.  Yes, sometimes things "get to you" and you have wild fantasies, but, I always appreciated what I DID have and didn't dwell on what I DIDN'T have.  My pros were always more than my cons. They still are.  (See Pros And Cons)

Cons
  • Single mom working full-time.
  • Going back to school for my Bachelor's Degree.
  • Trying to keep up with everything that had to be done.
  • Four hours of sleep a night for many years.
  • Running ragged to get my kids to doctors, dentists, hair cuts, activities and more.
  • Walking the floors for three hours at night with a sick child and having to be at work on time for a big meeting by 8:30 a.m.
  • Lugging diaper bags, strollers, groceries, Christmas trees and everything else alone when the kids were little. 
  • I got sued for orthodontist bills for my daughter. I had paid my share in full in one payment. 
  • I paid twice, his share and mine. It wasn't worth missing work, using my time off, aggravation, seeing his mug or lawyer's fees to take him to court.  
  • I had to have child support garnished and direct deposited into my account,
  • I had to go to court more times than I can count, hire lawyers, see counselors, get evaluations by psychologists (me and my kids) and other nonsense.    
top l  - r my daughter in one of her dance recitals, my son at Gymboree, a birthday party I threw for my daughter.
middle - l - r  my incredible sisters and me, a bunch of kids at my house for the weekend, Halloween party at my house.
bottom l - r Christmas with family and friends, beautiful tree at sister's house, backyard fun with family and friends

Pros
  • Being a single mom with 100% custody - I made all decisions, no one to "argue" with. 
  • I liked being the one in charge and I did it well. 
  • I got all the smiles, hugs, kisses and had the fun!
  • I had loving family and friends who always lent a hand.
  • I was able to go back to school to earn my Bachelor's Degree. 
  • I was able to pay off my student loans in one lump sum with one check!
  • I planned many trips with and without family and friends and we had a ton of fun.
  • I met wonderful men who I had/have amazing relationships with and who were/are great to my kids.
  • I got to choose doctors, dentists and activities for my kids and more.
  • I was able to pay off his share of the orthodontist monthly and not deal with any nonsense.
  • I had peace of mind, I avoided as much aggravation as possible.  
  • I only dealt with lawyers and courts to protect my children, other than that, it just wasn't worth it and I was able to let it go, thankfully.  
  • I and my children were found to be mentally sound and I was a fit parent. 
  • There was the ability to garnish wages for child support. Years ago, children suffered more than today. 
  • I had things to lug, we never went without supplies, groceries, Christmas decorations/gifts.
  • We had wonderful holidays with family and friends.
  • I was a crazy lady and took on MORE kids, often having nieces, nephews and friends' kids at my house for the weekend and sometimes a week straight (when I was on vacation). 
  • I once had had 8 kids for an entire week at my condo and I LOVED it, so did they.
  • I have wonderful memories, had many laughs, and have life-long friends and amazing family.
  • Everything I did, I put my kids first.  
  • When I first left my ex, I was offered a position in New York City for $80,000 a year.  In the 2000's that doesn't sound like a lot, but back then, it was a high salary.  I turned it down to work closer to my kids. 
  • All my jobs were family friendly. I could arrange my schedule to accommodate the kids.
  • I never missed a school play, party, parade, concert, etc.

Even with all my current problems, I do look forward to the real future!  (See The Family I Haven't Met Yet)


It's been tough, but you handle what you have to.  I've always come back fighting at anything thrown my way!


I never say to anyone, "you couldn't handle it". No one knows what anyone else couldn't handle. People are making themselves feel better about their situation saying that. It's just as silly as demanding things from others (See You Should Have Demanded... Part One)


 I don't believe I was dealt this hand because I'm SOOOOOOO AMAZING, I CAN HANDLE IT.  Personally, I think it's just simply bad luck.


Bad things happen to good people.  Someone was watching over me during some serious times, though. (See Divine Intervention? Amazing Luck? Or Was It Jinxed Real Estate? You Decide) So, I don't complain.



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